In keeping with the cognitive dissonance that seems to be my life, there is so much greatness running through all of the misery of the last month. BabyX2 could not be more amazing. Ze is great – rolling over early, talking, shrieking, babbling, grabbing things, starting to sleep at night regularly (YAAAAAASSSSSS). Baby’s favorite things are faces, looking at baby’s self in the mirror, babbling, and having someone talk whale (from Finding Nemo). Baby still loves Hello Animals and Hello Bugs, but is seeing color better, and will often sit through a reading of “Please, Baby, Please”. Baby rolled all the way to one side recently, but didn’t notice thank goodness – NOT READY! Baby has started to like bathes, some, being lotioned, some, and attention LOTS!
Our family is so amazing. So much support, love, time, and effort for our process and for our baby – even though no one knows how long baby will be with us. My in-laws agreed to do a puzzle room as a family activity over Thanksgiving, and it was such a great time! I cannot believe how lucky I got with bonus-sisters and I am hopeful that I can raise children to be half as amazing as my partner’s amazing grown-up nieces.
My friends are so amazing! They take every call and listen to every tear – even when it’s the exact same thing we already talked about…again. They take care of baby, they take care of me, they take care of my partner.
Despite being overwhelmed and stressed out and overworked, I have received so much support from my colleagues, both in terms of asking about baby, and recently giving positive feedback as to my work product and my future. It’s a huge relief after a hellish week pushing through tired, sick, and busy, to hear effusive positive feedback. I often wish I didn’t care so much about those types of feedback, but since I DO it IS awfully nice to get it.
We have our first Christmas tree since we became a couple! And, I took all my small little metal trees to work and I have a small forest of holiday trees to cheer me up every day!
We are able to take a weekend away next weekend, and my very closest inner circle is able to join us, and I am literally living for that break. I have hope if I push really hard now in the front half of the month, I will be able to take a couple days and actually relax during the holidays, and make time to spend with family and friends, and my tiny family. When I stop worrying about the future with baby and remember to spend the moment, it is generally pure joy (except at 2:30 a.m. But nothing is very joyful at 2:30 a.m.)
When I texted at the last minute this morning, my inner circle jumped into gear, and we had a lovely day out in celebration of my partner’s 41’st sun-rotation. We had food, and beverages, and played video games, and it was honestly delightful.
My foot is getting better, my canker sores have healed. I’ve been doing my PT stretches and my neck is going to loosen up. If I work a 14 hour day tomorrow, I will be on track for the rest of the week. We just need to get through the next 4 days…This is doable.